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People need to stop judging everyone based on their weight. They say only “fat” people get depressed and bullied a lot for being large. How about the skinny people? I know most people would eventually think that being skinny is a good thing, that being skinny is beautiful. But as a skinny person, I clearly disagree. I grew up being called as skinny, I tried everything to gain weight but I just don’t. You may say I should be glad and that I am lucky. Not at all. Have you ever felt so jealous to those people who actually have curves or girls who wear shorts and rock them out because of their shapely hips and there’s you feeling insecure because all you have are two stick legs? Have you ever had the desire to wear sleeveless clothes but think otherwise because no one wants to see your bony shoulder and visible clavicle? Have you ever bought clothes that are not fitting because you have a skinny body and you’re afraid that people will judge your skinny physique? Have you ever been called a walking stick? Toothpick? Skeleton? Of course you wouldn’t understand. You people keep bashing us skinny people that our body shouldn’t be something to be proud of. But did it ever crossed your mind that we don’t really want this at all? Did it ever occur to you that we are not confident flaunting our bony bodies everywhere? Did you ever thought that maybe they don’t have enough to fatten themselves with such grandeurs of food? Did you ever thought that maybe that person is also hurting in the inside? No. Of course not. Because, just like most people in our society nowadays, you don’t know just when to shut your mouth up and not fail to say something horrible to a person just because you think it’s true and you’re one fine perfect person who has no single flaw. But you are not perfect so stop acting like one and be a nice person to someone. They might need it.

In regards to my pictures…


I figured I would write my thoughts on it all. After having a night to sleep on it and a day to reflect, I think there has been ample time to gather my thoughts while the encounter is still fresh.

First off, I will state that the reason I’m making light of the situation is because I don’t think what I did was wrong. To be blunt, I was proud of my progress in the gym, thought I looked hot, and wanted to share it. I’m of the mindset that whoever you are, if you are proud of your body and want to show it off, so be it! You do you. There is an odd taboo with the human form (especially in the USA) and I don’t particularly think its a good thing to teach people that you should “hide yourself” as something incredibly sacred. Blah blah blah, that’s a medieval notion.

Secondly, the real problem here was not me sending my pictures to someone, but rather, sending them to the WRONG someone. The real travesty is a misplaced trust, and while I am certainly to blame for it, it is a shame that my private life was somehow forcibly dragged into the public’s perception of me. What is wrong is that, generally I try to stay cool and collected with my prose and a role model for kids (maybe not anymore shamefully) and this seemingly inconsequential act will likely affect the youth’s impression of me. Not only that, but I worry somewhat for my artistic integrity, and my academic integrity. Not exactly ideal, but I’m to blame and I’ll look this incident in the eye like a man. I did it, but I’d be damned if I didn’t own that shit like Beyonce would want me to.

Finally though, and I think that this is the most important part, because of this, I gained 200,000 followers on twitter, 40,000 followers on tumblr, and 20,000 followers on instagram…. It seems to me that the majority of people are actually praising this act as some sort of device to receive fame (or infamy). Why? I have no clue, I don’t entirely condone it though. I’ll make it clear my intent was for this not to happen, and how it has affected me so positively is an enigma to me that rings true of the human condition. Maybe people just like to see others mess up? I’m German by blood, so I feel you on that.

tl;dr? I was proud of myself and my progress since I was 14 and husky, I’m not proud of this incident’s potential lasting effects on my academic and artistic integrity. But I’m making the best of it through humor and I’m getting this shirt made today:

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Facing it like a man. 👏👏👏

Blocked by Rick

So I was scanning my twitter account and I thought of visiting Rick Riordan’s twitter and I noticed on the Follow button that I haven’t followed him yet which left me confused if I haven’t followed him yet since I’ve been on twitter for so long and I’ve read the Percy Jackson series since I was in highschool. Nevertheless, I followed him again and suddenly I can’t anymore and this appeared ‘You have been blocked from following this account by the request of this user.’ And I was like, “WHAAAAAT? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG??” I was extremely sad. I mean why wouldn’t you when one of your favorite authors just blocked you! I was shocked and speechless.And I made another account because yes I am desperate to follow him and minutes later, he blocked me…AGAIN. I was like, does Rick have anything against me? So I thought of searching twitter if I’m the only one he blocked (deep down I was really hoping I’m not the only one since that would be like a huge slap in the face) and I was right, I wasn’t the only one. In fact, there were more. Is this some kind of bug? Or maybe someone hacked his twitter account? The Titans or monsters are probably behind this. Or maybe this is some kind of a quest. Oh I swear to the River Styx I’m going to powderized those culprits behind this blind attack!

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